回来了,冲动思绪

失眠，因为它回来了，
不停思考的脑袋瓜，
“它”回来了。
彻夜难眠，就因它不断的思考，
也是我过去一直害怕的感觉，
毕竟它让我曾经几夜没睡，
就为了生活上的一些道理。
如今的它找上门了，
是被一些人所吸引，
是被一些想法所召唤。
别人都已经融入了生活，
自己却还在茫然当中，
是不是应该开始适应过来？
别人的开始都已经有了美好的作品，
自己也应该开始奋起直追？
脑海里不断地回思。
突然间又发现，
在这里不再需要使用英文，
我的英文会开始弱掉，
甚至还会忘得一干二净。
我该想个题目来写些东西。
就这样“How do i”闪过了，
所以就用它来作开头。
How do i live without you? Because i knew that it is really important in my life, English.
How do i get through one night without you? I can't get through one night without you and i scare you will disappear in my mind even my memory.
Of course, i knew that as my English level or standard, it's difficultly to write a fantastic work in my blog. Although it's hard, i am trying to make it now.
Why i want to do the thing such like this? Actually it is just informed me that i still have the second language to learn because everything of my dream studies are going to be destroyed by the new policy of the school. And so, it has burst my bubble with the "one year Taiwan and one year western country plan".
Now, i need to have a positive mind that maybe i can't further my studies in western country after one year, but still i can improve my English by myself.
That's why i need to post my blog with English sometime. At last, i think it's my beginning to try and learn for it with poor grammar and writing, but i just want to try because it is what i really need and hope to learn.